When I Was a Child...

I haven't written an honest post on this blog in months! My apologies to anybody who was still following my blog!
What Have I been up to the past few months? A lot! for the longest time I wanted to write but I had so much going on that I just didn't know where to start. And to be honest, i still don't so I will just jump in the thick of it.
I'm getting married in less than two weeks! Last night was my last weekend at my parents house as a single man. I have the rent paid for at the place that me and my wife will call our home for the next couple of years. I am two weeks away from Cabo with My love! It all seems unreal to me! When I started this blog i felt like such a little emo kid, like a  ittle boy. And as I write this entry I don't feel that way anymore. Any confusion I had about love, friendship, family and life has for the most part been cleared up.
Its funny but now that I am engaged i feel like my life makes sense. I don't mean this in the "This person makes me complete" mentality, but more like this is what I am meant to do. Living for my wife gives my life more purpose.  Responsibility is a good thing. In the past I simply lived for myself and that meant I could live frivolously. Now I have to live for my wife and myself and although it’s a bit nerve racking,  it will make me live a more responsible life. It’s like Mark Driscoll says, “men are like trucks, they will drive straighter if they are carrying a heavy load.”
So what have I been up to the past few months, I have been growing up. I pray and trust God. I complain less and work harder. I do ministry to the best of my ability. I live to put a smile on my fiancées face. And when I get an extra minute, I fish! Lol And I do it all to the Glory of God. If I could do these things for the rest of my life, then I will be happy.
I would like to take a moment to thank all of you who have been reading along for the past few years. You have helped me grow up through reading, commenting, encouraging and challenging me. You all mean the world to me. I know I am speaking with finality but this is only a new beginning!
I finish this blog with a quote from the apostle paul: “When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.”

1 Year Into The Future...

What will my Life look like one year from today? What will I be doing on October 11th 2012? Will I even be Alive? God willing I shall be, unless He comes Early (MARANATHA!!)

I will be:
- Married to the most gorgeous Amazing woman on earth
- Attending TFH
- An Adopt A Block Leader
- Still be blogging about My Life so stay tuned...

I'm hoping:
- I still have a job with my current agency
- I find a higher Paying Job that I love doing
- To become a small group leader at church
- I still get to attend small group with my Current Small group Leader, Louis.
- To be catching big fish again!

I want to:
- Get back into School.
- Get a new Car
- Write a book
- Start a business
- Get into good shape!

I wonder:
- What Married life will be like?
- Who my Close friends will be?
- How everything will be going at church?
- How My health will be doing?
- How Much closer I will get to becoming a Pastor?
- What bands will come out with good albums?
- How the niners will do next season?
- If I will be writing more in here?

I will definitely get answers on Oct 11th 2012. I will check back a year from now and we will answer these questions and probably even ask some new questions! Hope you guys keep reading. God Bless!!

Just keep writing!

I just feel like writing, that's all. I'm in the mood for it. I feel as If I haven't written a regular blog in a while. I miss it. I don't want to write randomness or anything extremely deep, I just feel like writing. I enjoy doing it. I haven't written in months. I haven't written stories, I haven't worked on my book. I just haven't been writing. I remember another time in my life when I quit writing. It from about 2003-2006. I was uninspired and I just let days turn to months, turn to years. I don't want that to happen here. And I say this knowing full well that I haven't really written in here for months.
I want to continue writing in this blog. I might not continue my two other blogs as I have lost any interest I had in keeping 3 blogs current. Nonetheless this blog will continue, slowly but surely.

thank you for reading!

Learning to be Happy

I have a hard time being happy. I'm not too sure why. you would think that because i'm christian I would always be happy, but that's not true. I'm a pessimist by nature. In fact that's part of why I NEED Jesus, Without him I would probably just crawl under a rock and die. But that's another blog.

There are a lot of things that I do to keep myself unhappy. I always have something to complain about, or somebody to blame for my bad mood. I look at good news through a lens of cynicism. But one of the worst things I do is allowing others to ruin my experiences.

Let me explain. I used to work at a sears store and I had this jerk of a boss. the guy was lazy and yet he felt the need to mess with us and look for all this extra work for us to do. the guy was rude, conceited, and pompous. In all, he was the kind of person that I couldn't stand.

so that was five years ago. Recently one of my buddies set up a camping trip. I was supposed to attend and yet he also invited my old manager. I was so irritated with my buddy for doing this and i tried to get him to uninvite him. I told one of my other buddies about this and he told me not to let our old manager ruin a potential good time for me.

I realized something. I allow other people to ruin situations for me; potentially great situations. It's like they have more of a say in my happiness than I do. These people are so unimportant to me and yet they can affect whether or not I am in a good mood. It's ridiculous. Well you know what? I refuse to do this anymore. Screw these people, they are not worth it! Just because I don't like specific people doesn't mean that I should allow them to ruin my life. Not anymore! I will attend that camping trip whether or not he shows up. I will enjoy my life regardless of who is around me and whether or not I like them.

I'm Engaged!!

On August 27th 2011 I became engaged to the Love of my life Yajaira Garza. It’s kind of a long story but I will share it anyway. In case you don’t want to read my big story, then this is the gist of it all… I’m engaged!!

The story begins when we were still friends back in 2003. I remember being on the phone with her and she mentioned that one day when she found “the one” she wanted to be proposed to under a pink sky. I didn’t know back when she was telling me this wish that I would one day become a part of it. I didn’t know that I would one day be hunting down a California pink sky and much less how difficult it would be to get one.
Last year we had a conversation about pink skies. I told her how rare they are in Northern California. We talked of how they come at random times and how you could never pinpoint an exact date where you could be sure to find one. I had many plans of how I wanted to propose to my lady, but she was still stuck on the idea of a pink sky. She told me that she preferred a pink sky over anything romantic I could possibly think of. In fact, she told me that she preferred a pink sky in front of some random place, like a target store, over anything else I could think of. And later she added another stipulation; she also wanted a video of the whole event and pictures! So I needed a pink sky, pics and video. I needed some place romantic to do it because obviously I couldn’t just do it in front of some crappy place like a target parking lot! Lol
She arrived on the evening of August 25th. In fact she came right around sundown and the sunset that day was orange, blue and a little bit of pink. As I drove her home from the airport I looked at the sunset and noticed the orange, but the pink hadn’t developed yet. She told me she needed to go to the store and so I took her to target. As we parked the car, the bit of pink appeared and she mentioned that she loved that sky. I told her it wasn’t even pink and she said that she liked it anyway. So there I was… with a ring in my pocket… in front of a TARGET! NO! haha no way I could do that!
My plan was simple. Aside from the first night which was a failure, I needed to take the two nights I was with her, take her somewhere beautiful and hope to God there was a pink sky. Keep in mind pink skies are rare here, and we had already had a pinkish/orangeish sky that I missed out on. I needed a miracle and I’m not lying when I say that I had my church smallgroup and friends helping me pray for a pinksky on the days she was in town. If this was gonna happen, it was going to have to be an act of God.
So Friday August 26th I decide that I’m going to take her to Monterey/carmel. It was sunny up until we got into Monterey then it was cloudy! So we sat there at the beach in Carmel, with a ring in my pocket, two cameras and no pink sky. Day two was a failure.
Saturday August 27th was her last night in town. I was praying so hard for a pink sky that day, since this was her last night. If I didn’t get one I would have to take the game into overtime and head out to Washington to try all over again.
So I took her out to the Napa valley. We went to Castillo Di Amorosa Winery In Calistoga which I highly recommend to anyone visiting napa! The whole tour was about two hours and if we continued to explore we could have easily explored a bit more and hopefully made it to the riverwalk at about sundown to hopefully propose to her. We went to the castle, and when we got there, she decided that she didn’t want to take the tour. I agreed, and we took a self-directed tour without a guide. Only problem with that is that they also close down certain parts of the castle when you take a self guided tour. So we took the tour and we were out of there in about 45 minutes! Lol It was way too early to propose and on top of that it was hot so she was in a bad mood. She told me she wanted to leave Napa. The problem was that I had a ring in my pocket so I went on to plan B: San Francisco.
I checked the weather report and it said that it was partly cloudy in the City so we started driving. When we arrived in the city, it was sunny. I was happy because I figured we could hit a beach, watch the sunset and hope for a pink sky. We drove along and as we headed for the beach, I saw it! It was like a line was drawn in the sky. It went from Light to darkness! It was cloudy, sprinkling, foggy, overall terrible. On top of that I got lost when I was trying to go to the beach and accidently jumped on HWY 101 which led me out of the city! I had to pay 6 bucks to get back into the city even though i had just paid 5! lol I was so mad! At that point I gave up on proposing. My second plan had failed.
I decided I was going to take her to check out the palace of fine arts and I got lost again. My navigator wasn’t working, my maps were down and It was winter in San Francisco! On top of that I took the wrong street and somehow ended up back on 101, headed out of the city so I decided we were leaving! I was so mad! I was even mad at God for not giving me a pink sky. I was acting like a spoiled brat! My girlfriend didn’t try to talk to me; she knew that it was pointless. We listened to music and left San Francisco Northbound on 101, a road that I never take while going home but somehow ended up on that day.
Once again we passed he line in the sky and we left the opaque weather and entered a brighter day just as the sun began setting. It was then that I spotted a little bit of pink in the sky. It clearly wasn’t enough to propose, but I kept my eye on it. As we drove along the sky became more pink and more pink until finally it caught her eye. She stared at it quietly and although we hadn’t been speaking, I knew that this was the moment that I had prayed and waited for. God had provided a pink sky!
At this point I knew what I had to do. I didn’t know where I was but I jumped off of the freeway under the excuse that I had to use the restroom. I pointed out the pink sky and told my girlfriend we should take a picture with it. She agreed and then I was on a mission to find a romantic setting in a random bay city that I didn’t know. I drove along and ended up stumbling upon this park in San Rafael, CA (found out it was San Rafael afterwards). In actuality it was a sign with a park name and a dirt path leading into the unknown. As we walked along I noticed 2 things: 1. There was nobody on the path (for the pics/video) 2. There were houses to the left of the path and some marsh land to the right (not the most romantic scenery but better than a target store, lol). I dragged her along the path hoping to find somebody before the pink sky faded away since there was only pink out to the east and none on the west. We ended up finding two guys who seemed a bit shady but I tried not to judge and asked them to take the pictures. They replied no and went on their way. I was surprised but didn’t have time to waste so we continued walking. Just then the path opened up to an amazing area with a great view. It was a beachy area with a view of the Richmond-San Rafael Bridge. Just then a couple came out from a side path and we asked them to take a picture of us to which they agreed. All the pieces were finally set: I had the pink sky, the romantic location, the great view, the camera for pictures, the video camera, people to take the pictures and the ring in my pocket. It was BEYOND perfect.

I pulled the people aside and they agreed to take the picture of us. After the first couple of pictures I knew it was time. I grabbed both of her hands and looked her in the eyes. I was nervous and I flat out couldn’t believe that God had pulled all of the pieces together for this proposal to happen. So I Told her that I loved her, I got down on one knee and with the video camera rolling and the camera shooting pics I proposed marriage to which she replied yes! And if that weren’t enough of a great thing, the sky was dark on the east but turned bright pink on the west, perfect for some post engagement pictures.
So ladies and gentleman THAT is the story. I really thank God that everything worked out. I honestly could not have planned anything better than this proposal. God played a huge part in setting this whole thing up and allowed me to give my lady her dream proposal!

Update on Life - 9/20/11

For some reason I just can’t bring myself to write much anymore. I will open up blogger and drown in my lack of inspiration. Next thing you know I am closing the window for another week. So what’s new since the least time I was here… way too much!
Ladies and Gentleman…
I AM AN ENGAGED MAN!!!!

Yes it is true on August 27th 2011, I became engaged to the love of my life, Yajaira. I’m not gonna lie, it was an emotional experience. Not only because of what was going on, but also because I felt like our relationship was approved of, created by and blessed By God. He provided everything I needed to make my girlfriends proposal into EXACTLY what she wanted!
So that’s the main news. Other than that I am doing different things at work. Starting different groups and taking on different objectives. I’m pretty excited about it all.
Adopt a block has had tons of changes and it is becoming a bit different but I still love everything that God is doing through that ministry.
I’m not going to lie, I had a bit of a hiatus from my weekly worship service. I continued to attend small group throughout, but I know that wasn’t enough. I am now attending again and experiencing the benefits of a weekly corporate gathering.
I have been fishing a lot. Angling is an exciting sport for which I have regained passion. I try to make it out to a body of water every weekend. I love it!
The 2011 Football Season is in full swing. I’m excited to see the niners play and I hope that this will be the first time I see an actual game.
I’ve been hanging out with some of my chico buddies a lot lately and it has been pretty refreshing. I used to hang with these guys about once a year but so far this year I have hung out with them twice with them this year with more plans for hanging in the future. Its been good hanging with the Chico buddies, especially my buddy Lee.
That is all for now. Not sure if anybody will read this.
Love ya folks!!

Update: 8/5/11

I guess i'll give you an update since I feel I haven't had much to write about lately.

- I have been saved for 10 years now.It's been a great ride
- I have been working at SADVC for 4 years going on 5 now.
- I'm only a few days away from my 7 year anniversary with my lady.
- I have been working with The Adopt-A-Block Ministry at my church for about 3 months now and I must confess that I absolutely love it! I love that God has given me this opportunity to bless his people and help them in any way that I can.
- I haven't been fishing in a few weeks, which sucks! I'm getting withdrawals! lol
- FOOTBALL starts in less than a week and I am pumped!
- Sept 15 I get to see Maroon 5 in concert for the first time ever!

That's about it for my life right now. how is yours?

It's All Still A Distant Dream...

So this might seem like judgment, stereotypical generalizations or accusations, but they aren’t. They are my truth. My hope is that nobody is offended by this but most likely somebody will be. Nonetheless, I proceed with true to life occurrences. I only ask that you would read through this entire entry before making judgments.

I have never truly trusted white people, especially older ones. To be honest, they scare me. I have seen them my whole life with their white privilege and their haughty attitude of entitlement. I have tried not to see them this way, but something always brings back these thoughts.

Last Friday night I went to the fair with my sister and my buddy. We were having a great time and we decided to stop by a wine bar and have a quick glass. We happened to sit behind two old white ladies, my back was to them. There we were minding our own business when all of a sudden one of them dropped a plastic bag she was holding. I was going to sit there and let her pick it up, but I felt bad. I figured since she was old, and a woman, I would do her a favor and pick up the bag for her. So I did and I handed it to her. I asked if there was anything else that she dropped, and her response, although I’m used to it, still took me by surprise. She looked at her purse and said, “yes, that’s it, there’s no money in my purse or anything.” I was shocked that this old lady would be such an evil bigot that she would choose to offend me while I was doing her a favor. I was going to keep my mouth shut, but I felt she needed a response. I controlled my anger and simply said, “You know, I was just trying to help you since you dropped your bag, there was no need for you to be rude with racial comments.” I wanted to cuss! I wanted to tell her off. I wanted to pick up her glass of wine and throw it in her face! But I didn’t. For if I did that I would be no better than her or the idea of Hispanic people that she had in her tiny little ignorant brain. She tried to say that she wasn’t trying to be racist, but I wanted nothing to do with it. She tried to justify what she said but I told her to leave me alone.

Growing up in a rural, agricultural, and conservative county, I was used to the idea that I would be discriminated against. I have faced it ever since I was a small child and the fat old white lady who owned the hardware store would follow me through every isle of the hardware store, watching me and asking if I needed help when I had clearly just told her I didn’t a couple of minutes prior. That behavior continued throughout my adolescence, being harassed by police, rude comments from white folks, blatant racist comments, being followed around stores, being spoken to in Spanish when I was clearly speaking English… better than they were!

Young white people seem to be fairly open-minded, but the older ones seem to have problems. At this age, I have met some wonderful older white people. I have met older white people who have melted me with their kindness and respect, and yet I have met some that have destroyed me and all trust I could have in them.

In this day in age you would think we would be past racism and discrimination, but I think it’s more visible than ever. Having a black president in the white house has brought out the evil in men’s hearts as they criticize him, accuse him of being of other religions, of being born in other country’s all because of the color of his skin. Martin Luther King Jr. dreamed of a day when people would be judged by the content of our character as opposed to the color of our skin, but it’s all still a dream. Meanwhile, back in reality, a young, educated, Christian, Hispanic male is still judged as a common thief in an attempt to show good character by helping an old white lady.

Just An Update...

Hey Folks! Just want to say I'm sorry for not posting lately. It is one of my "dry" seasons when it comes to writing. In all honesty, I can't find anything to write about. I'm drawing blanks every time that I open this page up. So let me just update you on my life for a bit and we'll consider it an official entry, shall we?!

As of right now I am 4 1/2 years into working at The sexual Assault and Domestic Violence center. recently my job has been getting a bit more interesting, but i realize this is not a career for me. To be honest, the main reason for that conclusion is the money they offer for these positions, it's not much. As selfish as this all sounds, you have to understand, I can't raise a family off of the amount I am making. It's not bad money, but it's not great either. I could survive off of it (and do well) if I was single my whole life, but I don't plan on being single my whole life. I plan on getting married. I'll keep you guys posted on this!

on a related note, I have a job interview on friday for a second job. I need to make bucks fast and since street pharmacist is no longer a career option, I have to look for a second job. I will let you all know how it goes.

Adopt a block (the ministry my sister and I are working with at church) is going great! It keeps us really busy and to be honest, we love doing it! I am having so much fun with this ministry! I am meeting new people, helping others, and doing the will of God. I'm excited for what is to come. please keep it all in prayer.

I am currently trying to lose weight. I have lost about 15 lbs to date. I have now set an official goal. I want to lose 55 lbs by next may. I think I can do it! and to be honest I need to do it to keep this stupid diabetes under control which as of now is okay. It's not too much of a nuisance since I don't need insulin shots or finger pricking. Please keep that in prayer as well.

I think that's pretty much it for now. I will keep you guys posted on all of these subjects in the future. I hope all of my readers are doing well. Thanks for always keeping in touch. You guys are my friends, not just my readers. I look forward to reading all of your comments whenever i log in. Thanks for reading my ramblings!

Health Report

Yesterday I went to the doctor to have some blood test results discussed with me. I found out that I have type 2 Diabetes. If you have read this blog more than one time, you know that I have issues so you best believe that this news took me from 100 to 0 in a quickness. It’s funny though because I knew for a fact that I was going to have to deal with this one day. You see, it runs in my family. My mom has diabetes, my grandma (dad’s side) has diabetes, my moms dad had diabetes. Which isn’t to say it was inevitable, but you throw into the eqation that I am a big guy who loves sweets and carbs and crap, and you get a one-way ticket to diabetes town.

To be honest, I totally blame myself. I obviously can’t blame anybody else. I was the one that knew this stuff ran in my bloodline and I continued to be unhealthy. “Smile now, cry later” was my method when dealing with diseases. I guess I felt invincible because I am (or at least thought I was) young. As it turns out, it’s not quite full blown diabetes which means no insulin injections, no finger-pricking, no medication, just diet and exercise. I guess it's not that bad but I need to drop some weight asap and I intend to do exactly that!

When I left the doctors, I was hella depressed. I felt bad about myself. I felt bad about the choices I had made. I felt bad because of all the stuff that I couldn’t enjoy anymore: i.e. The Double Western from Carl’s Jr, Mexican sweet bread, an ice cold coke on a hot day, more than one beer, CHOCOLATE, COFFEE!! I couldn’t deal with it so to cheer myself up, I went … SUIT SHOPPING!!!!

(took this on a day after church a few years ago... good times!)

Haha, had to do it! The suit is for my girlfriends cousins wedding but it still felt good to buy it. I look good in suits, lol.

Well anyway, Keep me in your prayers. I will more than likely feel bad about this in the future. It may be the source of anger or sadness in the future, but maybe not. I guess we will have to wait and see. For everybody reading this, please take care of yourself! Watch your carb and sugar intake, get plenty of exercise and steer clear of this crap.

Late night Reflection - Friday June 3, 2011

It’s 1228 am on Friday June 3, 2011. I am Listening to "Please Don't Leave Quite Yet" by Adam Agin. Smooth sounding track, check it out if you get a chance. I'm not drinking any alcohol tonight, just a glass of water. and duchess is snoring the night away!

I was on somebody's facebook earlier, browsing through their pictures and found myself thinking about their life. I was thinking about how they must have grown up, how their parents might have treated them, how their self esteem is doing, etc. So of course I began to think about myself.

What would I be like if everything were different?

Would my personality be different if I had been born to a different set of parents? would I be happier if I was born on the other side of the tracks? Would I smile more if I had grown up with money in my pocket? Would I be a better student if my parents had read me bedtime stories before going to sleep? Would I have a better self esteem if my parents reminded me of my successes and goals instead of failures? Would I be a different person if I had a lucrative career, money in the bank, and a sh.. eating smirk that tells the world to screw itself? would people like me more if I wasn't as awkward? Would anybody care about me if I spent all my time focussing on myself instead of others? Would I have a blog if my pen wasn't itching to write about the pain in my life?

Who would I be if things were different? Would i be the same? better or worse?

If You Died Tomorrow?

(yes, that is my name on a tombstone, that's how common my name is, lol)

[Mark Driscoll When asked: “If you were to die tomorrow, what do you hope people will most remember you for?”] … I hope people would remember me as someone who loved Jesus and grew to be more like him by ongoing repentance and grace, adored and enjoyed his wife well, cultivated his children while enjoying them deeply, and served the cause of the gospel wholeheartedly.

What will I be remembered for? I wish I could say it would be knowledge of scripture, or preaching ability or something of the like. Who knows, maybe some will remember me for that (boy, that would be a surprise, haha!). But If I were to guess based off of what I know and think I would say that if I died right now, people might remember me for the following things…

1. Love for Jesus. – anybody who knows me, knows that I love Jesus. I care little for religion, but love me some Jesus. I don’t always shove him down people’s throats (as I should or shouldn’t do, depending on what you believe) but somehow my conversation always come back to Him and how he saved my life!

2. Being a rebel! – Just being honest! I’m a rebel by nature. I’m proud of it sometimes, but others not so much. I was the black sheep in my family. I’m always going counter culture. Counter trend. I refuse to be part of the crowd, or whatever is popular. Don’t get me wrong, I am pretty culturally liberal, but I refuse to be who others tell me I have to be. I want to be who God wants me to be, but to be honest, I sometimes even rebel against him :( and that part is not good!

3. A story teller – I’m a talker! I love telling stories and I do it well. I also like creating new stories and writing stories. That’s who I am and that’s what I do.

4. A laugher – I laugh a lot. And if you are with me, you will laugh. I can’t stay serious, I’m a joker. The only thing I take seriously is humor! (haha) I sometimes take jokes too far… which can be mean or awkward… but anyway, I like to joke around!

5. A leader – This I discovered only a few years ago. For years I was a follower, a conformist sheep. I never thought I had what it took to become a leader. Then I was made into a leader. I became a youth pastor and God used me to lead people to Christ, to love them, to guide them and to protect them.

6. A great friend - I love people… genuinely. I can’t help it (not that I should). I care a lot for people. I’m not a shallow friend. I look out for the well-being of others. I want what’s best for them. Sometimes I want more for them than they want for themselves, and that can be a bit intrusive. But I’m a caring person, I’m loyal. I’m that type of a friend.

What about you? What are things for which you think you will be remembered?

Observations From 30 Days Of Truth

Observations from 30 days of truth:

It’s hard to be honest. It’s hard to put yourself out there, to hang your heart on your sleeve and to hope that people will understand where you are coming from. It’s really hard for me to think about things I like/love about myself. I can be very self-conscious and down on myself so to locate those things and write them down is a bit much for me. It was interesting to think about and re-live certain memories like the person that made my life hell or the hero that let me down. These posts hurt to think about but it was also good to just say these things outloud. Gay Marriage and religion/politics were without a doubt the hardest subjects to voice my opinions about, knowing that some people will disagree with you and possibly even judging you as closed minded, antiquated, homophobic, or fundamentalist. In all doing this 30 day project allowed me to think into things I don’t normally think about and that is a positive. Doing this 30 days of truth project was a great experience and I invite you all to take this challenge!

Thanks for reading along, folks!

30 days of Truth: Day 30

Day 30 - A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

What’s up big guy!

You are beautiful… (lol) what do I love about you… what don’t I love about you, know what I mean? ;) let’s see. I love your smile, I love your hair. I love the fact that you work out and are pretty strong. I love your taste in music! To be quite honest you have the best taste in music out of everybody that I know! I love that you are kind of awkward around a small group of people that you don’t know but when it comes time to present in public, you are brilliant! I love that you have been blogging for almost 4 years now! I love your writing style, both informal and formal! I love your sense of humor! You make others laugh and can make yourself laugh like nobody else can! Lol

I love the fact that you are a great friend even though others aren’t that great to you. I love how you love your family so much. I love that you love your girlfriend and that you sometimes go out of your way to show her how special she is (note to self, do this more often). I love how complicated you can be. Some seem to think only for minute amounts of time and you over-analyze everything. I love that you still day dream! And I love that you are passionate about life in general. I love that you love God and yet I challenge you to pursue him in a deeper manner! Love him with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength because only He is worthy.

I love you big guy!

-Me!

30 Days of Truth: Day 29

Day 29 - Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

I wish to change a lot of things. I hope to lose weight because I want to be healthy. I hope to go back to school and get my BA and hopefully a master’s in theology. I hope to lose all the fear necessary to be a great husband and father (some day). I hope to practice writing more often and use it to finally write a book or two… like I said, many things!

These are My Obsessions...

The answers are: Smallville, country music, One Tree Hill, Frasier, Jack's Mannequin, Hunting, Spin City, The Damnwells, 2Pac, Fishing, Nirvana, and currently Jazz Music and the show Scrubs.

The answer: things I have been obsessed with in the past!

For some reason I don’t just like stuff, I get obsessed with things! Back in 2003 I didn’t just LIKE smallville, I became obsessed with the show, purchasing every season, and I got into all things superman!

And it has sort of happened that way with all things on the above list. I don’t just “sort of” like them, I become gripped with every episode of every season, every song on every album, every aspect of every specific sport. And the fanaticism ends up lasting for a period of weeks to possibly even years, and then I forget all about it for a while. But then they just become a part of me, of my past and I like them normally.

So I’m not sure if this is a psychological issue or just a quirk? if you are a shrink, leave me an opinion and if you’re not, go ahead and drop me your opinion too. Oh and let me know some of your obsessions as well!?

Have a great weekend, folks!