Yes, May does get two songs! It has been the most important month of my life so it absolutely deserves two songs. If any song stood out not only in the month of May or even the year it is this song! In fact, I will go as far as to say that this song will forever remind me of my beautiful bride, and how for some reason, the rest of the world disappeared when those doors opened and she walked toward me in her white dress, this song, the soundtrack to that beautiful moment. THAT is why this is also the song of the month!
Turning Page - Sleeping At Last
I’ve waited a hundred years.
But I’d wait a million more for you.
Nothing prepared me for
What the privilege of being yours would do.
If I had only felt the warmth within your touch,
If I had only seen how you smile when you blush,
Or how you curl your lip when you concentrate enough,
I would have known what I was living for all along.
What I’ve been living for.
Your love is my turning page,
Where only the sweetest words remain.
Every kiss is a cursive line,
Every touch is a redefining phrase.
I surrender who I’ve been for who you are,
For nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart.
If I had only felt how it feels to be yours,
Well, I would have known what I’ve been living for all along.
What I’ve been living for.
Though we’re tethered to the story we must tell,
When I saw you, well, I knew we’d tell it well.
With a whisper, we will tame the vicious scenes.
Like a feather bringing kingdoms to their knees.
About Me
- J
- I love writing. If you want to know anything else just ask me or else read up! I have two blogs ("A Pen Itching To Bleed Onto Paper" and "The Rebirth of J"). One of my blogs (A Pen...) is updated more frequently than the other. "The Rebirth” is more of a story I am writing with my life whereas "A Pen" would be my random thoughts past, present, and future in this unfolding journey I call life. If this is your first time reading my blog, please visit Post #2 for the month of April 2008 in my "A Pen" blog archives... Thanks!
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Friday, June 15, 2012
Friday, June 8, 2012
I Love My Life!
Where do I begin? First off I am a married man! I married the love of my life on May 26th. It was a HUGE wedding and also the most beautiful wedding I have EVER been to! We had room for about 600 people and about 550 showed up.
My family all drove up from California. A 15 hour drive but my family did it, because they love me! Out of 5 uncles on my dads side and 1 aunt, and 1 uncle on my moms side and 1 aunt, Guess how many showed up? ZERO! And I should have expected that. You remember all those posts about my extended family not caring about me? Turns out they were all true. Surprisingly though, I could care less. it was more of a relief than anything. Now I know who my REAL family is so I don't have to try to be "familiar" with the extended family anymore. My duty is done and now I move on with my life.
My true family all showed up though. My buddy Jaime and his wife becky who helped immensely with everything, my buddy alejandro who came up from stockton on a 21 hour bus ride, My best man Luis and art who flew up from Sacramento, my buddies Paloma and Guera who flew up from the monterey area, my small group leaders/ premarital counselors nick and Leti from vacaville, and the pastor from my old church Rev John Gallegos. These people, they are my REAL family!
I moved in to a duplex with my baby. we bought a bed, couches and washer/dryer so we are all set. I look forward to living in this place for a while, working hard and then purchasing our own home.
I am happier than a person could be right now. I don't know what I could possibly do to deserve this amazing life. If anything I deserve the worst this life has to offer but instead God has blessed me with an amazing wife, an awesome family and a happy home. It's probably the first time you will ever hear me say something like this: I love my life!
My family all drove up from California. A 15 hour drive but my family did it, because they love me! Out of 5 uncles on my dads side and 1 aunt, and 1 uncle on my moms side and 1 aunt, Guess how many showed up? ZERO! And I should have expected that. You remember all those posts about my extended family not caring about me? Turns out they were all true. Surprisingly though, I could care less. it was more of a relief than anything. Now I know who my REAL family is so I don't have to try to be "familiar" with the extended family anymore. My duty is done and now I move on with my life.
My true family all showed up though. My buddy Jaime and his wife becky who helped immensely with everything, my buddy alejandro who came up from stockton on a 21 hour bus ride, My best man Luis and art who flew up from Sacramento, my buddies Paloma and Guera who flew up from the monterey area, my small group leaders/ premarital counselors nick and Leti from vacaville, and the pastor from my old church Rev John Gallegos. These people, they are my REAL family!
I moved in to a duplex with my baby. we bought a bed, couches and washer/dryer so we are all set. I look forward to living in this place for a while, working hard and then purchasing our own home.
I am happier than a person could be right now. I don't know what I could possibly do to deserve this amazing life. If anything I deserve the worst this life has to offer but instead God has blessed me with an amazing wife, an awesome family and a happy home. It's probably the first time you will ever hear me say something like this: I love my life!
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
I'm Engaged!!
On August 27th 2011 I became engaged to the Love of my life Yajaira Garza. It’s kind of a long story but I will share it anyway. In case you don’t want to read my big story, then this is the gist of it all… I’m engaged!!
The story begins when we were still friends back in 2003. I remember being on the phone with her and she mentioned that one day when she found “the one” she wanted to be proposed to under a pink sky. I didn’t know back when she was telling me this wish that I would one day become a part of it. I didn’t know that I would one day be hunting down a California pink sky and much less how difficult it would be to get one.
Last year we had a conversation about pink skies. I told her how rare they are in Northern California. We talked of how they come at random times and how you could never pinpoint an exact date where you could be sure to find one. I had many plans of how I wanted to propose to my lady, but she was still stuck on the idea of a pink sky. She told me that she preferred a pink sky over anything romantic I could possibly think of. In fact, she told me that she preferred a pink sky in front of some random place, like a target store, over anything else I could think of. And later she added another stipulation; she also wanted a video of the whole event and pictures! So I needed a pink sky, pics and video. I needed some place romantic to do it because obviously I couldn’t just do it in front of some crappy place like a target parking lot! Lol
She arrived on the evening of August 25th. In fact she came right around sundown and the sunset that day was orange, blue and a little bit of pink. As I drove her home from the airport I looked at the sunset and noticed the orange, but the pink hadn’t developed yet. She told me she needed to go to the store and so I took her to target. As we parked the car, the bit of pink appeared and she mentioned that she loved that sky. I told her it wasn’t even pink and she said that she liked it anyway. So there I was… with a ring in my pocket… in front of a TARGET! NO! haha no way I could do that!
My plan was simple. Aside from the first night which was a failure, I needed to take the two nights I was with her, take her somewhere beautiful and hope to God there was a pink sky. Keep in mind pink skies are rare here, and we had already had a pinkish/orangeish sky that I missed out on. I needed a miracle and I’m not lying when I say that I had my church smallgroup and friends helping me pray for a pinksky on the days she was in town. If this was gonna happen, it was going to have to be an act of God.
So Friday August 26th I decide that I’m going to take her to Monterey/carmel. It was sunny up until we got into Monterey then it was cloudy! So we sat there at the beach in Carmel, with a ring in my pocket, two cameras and no pink sky. Day two was a failure.
Saturday August 27th was her last night in town. I was praying so hard for a pink sky that day, since this was her last night. If I didn’t get one I would have to take the game into overtime and head out to Washington to try all over again.
So I took her out to the Napa valley. We went to Castillo Di Amorosa Winery In Calistoga which I highly recommend to anyone visiting napa! The whole tour was about two hours and if we continued to explore we could have easily explored a bit more and hopefully made it to the riverwalk at about sundown to hopefully propose to her. We went to the castle, and when we got there, she decided that she didn’t want to take the tour. I agreed, and we took a self-directed tour without a guide. Only problem with that is that they also close down certain parts of the castle when you take a self guided tour. So we took the tour and we were out of there in about 45 minutes! Lol It was way too early to propose and on top of that it was hot so she was in a bad mood. She told me she wanted to leave Napa. The problem was that I had a ring in my pocket so I went on to plan B: San Francisco.
I checked the weather report and it said that it was partly cloudy in the City so we started driving. When we arrived in the city, it was sunny. I was happy because I figured we could hit a beach, watch the sunset and hope for a pink sky. We drove along and as we headed for the beach, I saw it! It was like a line was drawn in the sky. It went from Light to darkness! It was cloudy, sprinkling, foggy, overall terrible. On top of that I got lost when I was trying to go to the beach and accidently jumped on HWY 101 which led me out of the city! I had to pay 6 bucks to get back into the city even though i had just paid 5! lol I was so mad! At that point I gave up on proposing. My second plan had failed.
I decided I was going to take her to check out the palace of fine arts and I got lost again. My navigator wasn’t working, my maps were down and It was winter in San Francisco! On top of that I took the wrong street and somehow ended up back on 101, headed out of the city so I decided we were leaving! I was so mad! I was even mad at God for not giving me a pink sky. I was acting like a spoiled brat! My girlfriend didn’t try to talk to me; she knew that it was pointless. We listened to music and left San Francisco Northbound on 101, a road that I never take while going home but somehow ended up on that day.
Once again we passed he line in the sky and we left the opaque weather and entered a brighter day just as the sun began setting. It was then that I spotted a little bit of pink in the sky. It clearly wasn’t enough to propose, but I kept my eye on it. As we drove along the sky became more pink and more pink until finally it caught her eye. She stared at it quietly and although we hadn’t been speaking, I knew that this was the moment that I had prayed and waited for. God had provided a pink sky!
At this point I knew what I had to do. I didn’t know where I was but I jumped off of the freeway under the excuse that I had to use the restroom. I pointed out the pink sky and told my girlfriend we should take a picture with it. She agreed and then I was on a mission to find a romantic setting in a random bay city that I didn’t know. I drove along and ended up stumbling upon this park in San Rafael, CA (found out it was San Rafael afterwards). In actuality it was a sign with a park name and a dirt path leading into the unknown. As we walked along I noticed 2 things: 1. There was nobody on the path (for the pics/video) 2. There were houses to the left of the path and some marsh land to the right (not the most romantic scenery but better than a target store, lol). I dragged her along the path hoping to find somebody before the pink sky faded away since there was only pink out to the east and none on the west. We ended up finding two guys who seemed a bit shady but I tried not to judge and asked them to take the pictures. They replied no and went on their way. I was surprised but didn’t have time to waste so we continued walking. Just then the path opened up to an amazing area with a great view. It was a beachy area with a view of the Richmond-San Rafael Bridge. Just then a couple came out from a side path and we asked them to take a picture of us to which they agreed. All the pieces were finally set: I had the pink sky, the romantic location, the great view, the camera for pictures, the video camera, people to take the pictures and the ring in my pocket. It was BEYOND perfect.
I pulled the people aside and they agreed to take the picture of us. After the first couple of pictures I knew it was time. I grabbed both of her hands and looked her in the eyes. I was nervous and I flat out couldn’t believe that God had pulled all of the pieces together for this proposal to happen. So I Told her that I loved her, I got down on one knee and with the video camera rolling and the camera shooting pics I proposed marriage to which she replied yes! And if that weren’t enough of a great thing, the sky was dark on the east but turned bright pink on the west, perfect for some post engagement pictures.
So ladies and gentleman THAT is the story. I really thank God that everything worked out. I honestly could not have planned anything better than this proposal. God played a huge part in setting this whole thing up and allowed me to give my lady her dream proposal!
The story begins when we were still friends back in 2003. I remember being on the phone with her and she mentioned that one day when she found “the one” she wanted to be proposed to under a pink sky. I didn’t know back when she was telling me this wish that I would one day become a part of it. I didn’t know that I would one day be hunting down a California pink sky and much less how difficult it would be to get one.
Last year we had a conversation about pink skies. I told her how rare they are in Northern California. We talked of how they come at random times and how you could never pinpoint an exact date where you could be sure to find one. I had many plans of how I wanted to propose to my lady, but she was still stuck on the idea of a pink sky. She told me that she preferred a pink sky over anything romantic I could possibly think of. In fact, she told me that she preferred a pink sky in front of some random place, like a target store, over anything else I could think of. And later she added another stipulation; she also wanted a video of the whole event and pictures! So I needed a pink sky, pics and video. I needed some place romantic to do it because obviously I couldn’t just do it in front of some crappy place like a target parking lot! Lol
She arrived on the evening of August 25th. In fact she came right around sundown and the sunset that day was orange, blue and a little bit of pink. As I drove her home from the airport I looked at the sunset and noticed the orange, but the pink hadn’t developed yet. She told me she needed to go to the store and so I took her to target. As we parked the car, the bit of pink appeared and she mentioned that she loved that sky. I told her it wasn’t even pink and she said that she liked it anyway. So there I was… with a ring in my pocket… in front of a TARGET! NO! haha no way I could do that!
My plan was simple. Aside from the first night which was a failure, I needed to take the two nights I was with her, take her somewhere beautiful and hope to God there was a pink sky. Keep in mind pink skies are rare here, and we had already had a pinkish/orangeish sky that I missed out on. I needed a miracle and I’m not lying when I say that I had my church smallgroup and friends helping me pray for a pinksky on the days she was in town. If this was gonna happen, it was going to have to be an act of God.
So Friday August 26th I decide that I’m going to take her to Monterey/carmel. It was sunny up until we got into Monterey then it was cloudy! So we sat there at the beach in Carmel, with a ring in my pocket, two cameras and no pink sky. Day two was a failure.
Saturday August 27th was her last night in town. I was praying so hard for a pink sky that day, since this was her last night. If I didn’t get one I would have to take the game into overtime and head out to Washington to try all over again.
So I took her out to the Napa valley. We went to Castillo Di Amorosa Winery In Calistoga which I highly recommend to anyone visiting napa! The whole tour was about two hours and if we continued to explore we could have easily explored a bit more and hopefully made it to the riverwalk at about sundown to hopefully propose to her. We went to the castle, and when we got there, she decided that she didn’t want to take the tour. I agreed, and we took a self-directed tour without a guide. Only problem with that is that they also close down certain parts of the castle when you take a self guided tour. So we took the tour and we were out of there in about 45 minutes! Lol It was way too early to propose and on top of that it was hot so she was in a bad mood. She told me she wanted to leave Napa. The problem was that I had a ring in my pocket so I went on to plan B: San Francisco.
I checked the weather report and it said that it was partly cloudy in the City so we started driving. When we arrived in the city, it was sunny. I was happy because I figured we could hit a beach, watch the sunset and hope for a pink sky. We drove along and as we headed for the beach, I saw it! It was like a line was drawn in the sky. It went from Light to darkness! It was cloudy, sprinkling, foggy, overall terrible. On top of that I got lost when I was trying to go to the beach and accidently jumped on HWY 101 which led me out of the city! I had to pay 6 bucks to get back into the city even though i had just paid 5! lol I was so mad! At that point I gave up on proposing. My second plan had failed.
I decided I was going to take her to check out the palace of fine arts and I got lost again. My navigator wasn’t working, my maps were down and It was winter in San Francisco! On top of that I took the wrong street and somehow ended up back on 101, headed out of the city so I decided we were leaving! I was so mad! I was even mad at God for not giving me a pink sky. I was acting like a spoiled brat! My girlfriend didn’t try to talk to me; she knew that it was pointless. We listened to music and left San Francisco Northbound on 101, a road that I never take while going home but somehow ended up on that day.
Once again we passed he line in the sky and we left the opaque weather and entered a brighter day just as the sun began setting. It was then that I spotted a little bit of pink in the sky. It clearly wasn’t enough to propose, but I kept my eye on it. As we drove along the sky became more pink and more pink until finally it caught her eye. She stared at it quietly and although we hadn’t been speaking, I knew that this was the moment that I had prayed and waited for. God had provided a pink sky!
At this point I knew what I had to do. I didn’t know where I was but I jumped off of the freeway under the excuse that I had to use the restroom. I pointed out the pink sky and told my girlfriend we should take a picture with it. She agreed and then I was on a mission to find a romantic setting in a random bay city that I didn’t know. I drove along and ended up stumbling upon this park in San Rafael, CA (found out it was San Rafael afterwards). In actuality it was a sign with a park name and a dirt path leading into the unknown. As we walked along I noticed 2 things: 1. There was nobody on the path (for the pics/video) 2. There were houses to the left of the path and some marsh land to the right (not the most romantic scenery but better than a target store, lol). I dragged her along the path hoping to find somebody before the pink sky faded away since there was only pink out to the east and none on the west. We ended up finding two guys who seemed a bit shady but I tried not to judge and asked them to take the pictures. They replied no and went on their way. I was surprised but didn’t have time to waste so we continued walking. Just then the path opened up to an amazing area with a great view. It was a beachy area with a view of the Richmond-San Rafael Bridge. Just then a couple came out from a side path and we asked them to take a picture of us to which they agreed. All the pieces were finally set: I had the pink sky, the romantic location, the great view, the camera for pictures, the video camera, people to take the pictures and the ring in my pocket. It was BEYOND perfect.
I pulled the people aside and they agreed to take the picture of us. After the first couple of pictures I knew it was time. I grabbed both of her hands and looked her in the eyes. I was nervous and I flat out couldn’t believe that God had pulled all of the pieces together for this proposal to happen. So I Told her that I loved her, I got down on one knee and with the video camera rolling and the camera shooting pics I proposed marriage to which she replied yes! And if that weren’t enough of a great thing, the sky was dark on the east but turned bright pink on the west, perfect for some post engagement pictures.
So ladies and gentleman THAT is the story. I really thank God that everything worked out. I honestly could not have planned anything better than this proposal. God played a huge part in setting this whole thing up and allowed me to give my lady her dream proposal!
Thursday, June 23, 2011
What She Taught Me About Love...
I’m thinking about love today. It’s the most Powerful force In the world and the ultimate force that sways human behavior. You don’t just feel it all of a sudden, it grows, changes, and matures. This is why “love at first sight” is not possible. It’s not based on sight and yet the sight of that one person can change not only your day, but your entire life.
You don’t fall in love, you choose love. When you fall into a feeling, it’s called infatuation. When you make a choice to be there for someone and with someone regardless of feeling, that’s called love. Because of this fact, you don’t just fall in love with anybody. You can be attracted to many people because attraction is merely liking a persons appearance. You can become infatuated with any person that was a good date or whose personality you enjoy. But true love can only be experienced with a small number of people.
For me, love came in Late April of 2004, and I didn’t even notice it. It would develop over that summer and by August of that year, attraction and infatuation had set into place. Over the next few months it became apparent to me that I cared about this girl deeply. On a random day I walked around the parking lot of a walmart in Yuba City, California and I thought about my feelings for this girl and what I was willing to do about them. I wondered whether she was worth taking a risk and as I contemplated her beauty, her intelligence, her character, her relationship with God, I realized that she was worth more than just a risk; she was worth my time, my money, and my life. I loved her on that day and I never turned back.
Love is a risk worth taking. Love is a devotion that lasts a lifetime. Love is a challenging journey that you agree to take with one person regardless of whatever comes your way. Love is to recognize that one person belonged by your side since the beginning of time and the joy of realizing that you have finally found them. Love is looking at that one person while the rest of the world slowly fades away into the background.
When you find love, true love, it is impossible to lose it. Love is a mindful choice that selects this one person as Your friend, your lover, your partner in a journey that is fully about the other person as opposed to yourself. Love is a covenant between you, another person and God, the creator of love and of your love with the other person. You don’t love the other person out of obligation or duty, you love them in worship to God and in the joy of having them. Those are the things that SHE has taught me about love…
You don’t fall in love, you choose love. When you fall into a feeling, it’s called infatuation. When you make a choice to be there for someone and with someone regardless of feeling, that’s called love. Because of this fact, you don’t just fall in love with anybody. You can be attracted to many people because attraction is merely liking a persons appearance. You can become infatuated with any person that was a good date or whose personality you enjoy. But true love can only be experienced with a small number of people.
For me, love came in Late April of 2004, and I didn’t even notice it. It would develop over that summer and by August of that year, attraction and infatuation had set into place. Over the next few months it became apparent to me that I cared about this girl deeply. On a random day I walked around the parking lot of a walmart in Yuba City, California and I thought about my feelings for this girl and what I was willing to do about them. I wondered whether she was worth taking a risk and as I contemplated her beauty, her intelligence, her character, her relationship with God, I realized that she was worth more than just a risk; she was worth my time, my money, and my life. I loved her on that day and I never turned back.
Love is a risk worth taking. Love is a devotion that lasts a lifetime. Love is a challenging journey that you agree to take with one person regardless of whatever comes your way. Love is to recognize that one person belonged by your side since the beginning of time and the joy of realizing that you have finally found them. Love is looking at that one person while the rest of the world slowly fades away into the background.
When you find love, true love, it is impossible to lose it. Love is a mindful choice that selects this one person as Your friend, your lover, your partner in a journey that is fully about the other person as opposed to yourself. Love is a covenant between you, another person and God, the creator of love and of your love with the other person. You don’t love the other person out of obligation or duty, you love them in worship to God and in the joy of having them. Those are the things that SHE has taught me about love…
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
To Miss Somebody So Much It Hurts
To need them. To genuinely need them.
To know and feel what it is like to have them near. To feel their warmth. To feel their breath. To touch their skin. To hold them close for just a second too long while making up for lost time. To stare at them. To look straight into their eyes and speak no words, except those that one soul whispers to another. To hold their hand like you’re clinging on for dear life, knowing that soon, this will all be a distant memory. And to long, deeply, intensely for just one more second together when you know you were supposed to part ten seconds ago.
To go back to staring at a picture, and listening to a phone call. To feel blood spilling out of a wound non-existent. To break a heart without the intention of doing so. To desire ten fingers wrapped in each other, four arms drawing each other close, and two souls yearning for the day that they will finally become one.
To know and feel what it is like to have them near. To feel their warmth. To feel their breath. To touch their skin. To hold them close for just a second too long while making up for lost time. To stare at them. To look straight into their eyes and speak no words, except those that one soul whispers to another. To hold their hand like you’re clinging on for dear life, knowing that soon, this will all be a distant memory. And to long, deeply, intensely for just one more second together when you know you were supposed to part ten seconds ago.
To go back to staring at a picture, and listening to a phone call. To feel blood spilling out of a wound non-existent. To break a heart without the intention of doing so. To desire ten fingers wrapped in each other, four arms drawing each other close, and two souls yearning for the day that they will finally become one.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
30 Day Project: Day 10
Day 10: A picture of someone you see yourself marrying in the future
There is nobody else...NOBODY! I love her more than I love myself. My heart is completely hers and I will show her that by also giving her the rest of my life. She is my beautiful bride to be and i will spend all my days trying to be her prince charming!
There is nobody else...NOBODY! I love her more than I love myself. My heart is completely hers and I will show her that by also giving her the rest of my life. She is my beautiful bride to be and i will spend all my days trying to be her prince charming!
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
What is Love, and am I in it?
Love seems to be this force that destroys you little by little while also making a brand new person out of you. That’s what I have noticed. I remember being young and having NO IDEA what love was. To me, love was a word that was meaningless. It was a word that I would say to young women to let them know that I wanted to “get with them.” I was guilty of saying those words without meaning them. My first girlfriend told me she loved me after 3 days of dating her. And so that she wouldn’t be alone in saying and to avoid uncomfortable silence, I said it to her as well.
Needless to say that wasn’t true love. To me, true love is what I have been experiencing for the past 6 years. It’s funny because it’s not what it looks like on TV; it’s a bit more complex than that. It’s more than just a simple feeling, a one time decision, an emotional connection, or a physical encounter. And it’s different from the clichés and at the same time includes them all. Love is this love-hate, fight make-up, fun-boredom, agreement-disagreement, confusion-clarity, smiles-cries, too much-not enough, firm decision - trial and error process that makes you realize that there is this one person in the world that you begin to live for, breathe for and you would surely die for.
It doesn’t start off that way… love grows. It matures off of decisions to put it first; off of choices to put this persons needs and wants ahead of your own. You start off feeling like you’re in the relationship because they make you happy and then your life becomes about making them happy. It stops becoming about you and it becomes about them.
I’m lucky, I have the greatest girlfriend in the whole world. I have screwed up so many times and for some strange reason she still finds it worthwhile to be with me. With her I learned what true love is and we will continue to learn what it means as time passes and our love grows.
Needless to say that wasn’t true love. To me, true love is what I have been experiencing for the past 6 years. It’s funny because it’s not what it looks like on TV; it’s a bit more complex than that. It’s more than just a simple feeling, a one time decision, an emotional connection, or a physical encounter. And it’s different from the clichés and at the same time includes them all. Love is this love-hate, fight make-up, fun-boredom, agreement-disagreement, confusion-clarity, smiles-cries, too much-not enough, firm decision - trial and error process that makes you realize that there is this one person in the world that you begin to live for, breathe for and you would surely die for.
It doesn’t start off that way… love grows. It matures off of decisions to put it first; off of choices to put this persons needs and wants ahead of your own. You start off feeling like you’re in the relationship because they make you happy and then your life becomes about making them happy. It stops becoming about you and it becomes about them.
I’m lucky, I have the greatest girlfriend in the whole world. I have screwed up so many times and for some strange reason she still finds it worthwhile to be with me. With her I learned what true love is and we will continue to learn what it means as time passes and our love grows.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Our Version of Love...
“But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
Let me ask you a question… do you know God’s love? Its something that can drive you to tears in more ways than one. Its something so beautiful, so perfect that it sounds like a fairy tale. And if you don’t know him, it really is!
The type of love that God is… well lets just say we don’t fully understand it. Our version of love I believe is an attempt to mimic the love of God. But since we are imperfect beings we give into our own selfishness. Our love is not patient, kind, it envies, it boasts and it is VERY proud! It is the complete opposite of His Love. So it makes sense that the divorce rate in the US is about 50 percent. It makes sense that 1.02 billion people are facing chronic hunger in this world right now. It makes sense that Approximately 1.3 million women are physically assaulted by their partners annually in the US.
My Conclusion: WE DO NOT KNOW HOW TO LOVE! Our version of love has been tainted by the ideas, trends and culture of this messed up world that we live in! We have learned to stick to our immediate family (sometimes not even that!), ignore all others and fend for ourselves! And this is not only non-Christians, but those in the church are doing the exact same thing and coincidentally painting a misrepresentation of God’s love towards humanity. The church is supposed to be at the forefront of the love movement and instead we are barely beginning to wake up and wipe the crust out of our naively ignorant eyes.
Back to the subject of love, During this Christmas season we see a lot of “good will towards men,” a lot of “Christmas spirit,” a lot of “giving instead of getting” and it is beautiful to see all of that, but what about the other 364 days of the year… what then?? What happens to love the rest of the year?
There is a beautiful, honest, self sacrificing, self- portrait of Love that God painted for us on the Cross. His message: ”I love you, do you believe in me?” and so I know its easy to get caught in the cynicism, doubt and skepticism of this world but I want everybody to know that there is a God that loves you no matter what. All he wants is to start a relationship with you where He is your God and you are his. Not really sure why I’m writing this, but I hope somebody can benefit from it. Merry Christmas Folks!
-J.
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