It’s 1228 am on Friday June 3, 2011. I am Listening to "Please Don't Leave Quite Yet" by Adam Agin. Smooth sounding track, check it out if you get a chance. I'm not drinking any alcohol tonight, just a glass of water. and duchess is snoring the night away!
I was on somebody's facebook earlier, browsing through their pictures and found myself thinking about their life. I was thinking about how they must have grown up, how their parents might have treated them, how their self esteem is doing, etc. So of course I began to think about myself.
What would I be like if everything were different?
Would my personality be different if I had been born to a different set of parents? would I be happier if I was born on the other side of the tracks? Would I smile more if I had grown up with money in my pocket? Would I be a better student if my parents had read me bedtime stories before going to sleep? Would I have a better self esteem if my parents reminded me of my successes and goals instead of failures? Would I be a different person if I had a lucrative career, money in the bank, and a sh.. eating smirk that tells the world to screw itself? would people like me more if I wasn't as awkward? Would anybody care about me if I spent all my time focussing on myself instead of others? Would I have a blog if my pen wasn't itching to write about the pain in my life?
Who would I be if things were different? Would i be the same? better or worse?
About Me
- J
- I love writing. If you want to know anything else just ask me or else read up! I have two blogs ("A Pen Itching To Bleed Onto Paper" and "The Rebirth of J"). One of my blogs (A Pen...) is updated more frequently than the other. "The Rebirth” is more of a story I am writing with my life whereas "A Pen" would be my random thoughts past, present, and future in this unfolding journey I call life. If this is your first time reading my blog, please visit Post #2 for the month of April 2008 in my "A Pen" blog archives... Thanks!
Showing posts with label Late Night Reflections. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Late Night Reflections. Show all posts
Friday, June 3, 2011
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Late night Reflection - Tuesday November 16, 2010
It’s 1233am on Tuesday November 16, 2010. I am not listening to music right now I am watching an episode of Frasier,drinking a glass of Beringer white merlot, making turkey burgers, and duchess is dead asleep :)
A few days ago I turned 28. It was perhaps one of the best birthdays I've had in a while. Its funny because as of November 11 at 11am my friends had all flaked on hanging out with me and I was pissed and down at the same time. I had thought to myself that since my plans failed I would have a bad birthday but it was quite the opposite!
My awesome sister was down to hang and determined to make it a great birthday either way so I decided to call our friend monica up and see if we could go Wine tasting in the Napa Valley. As luck would have it she had nothing to do and was excited to hang with us. What followed was an awesome winery tour, some great samples of wine and great times. we then had dinner in napa and toured the town. In all it was a great day.
Then over the weekend i went to chico, had dinner with some buddies, went to hang out in downtown chico and went hunting the next day. Whim controlled great planning this weekend. I'm not saying plans are bad but sometimes spontaneity can be good for you. so this weekend when you have some down time, try to be a bit spontaneous and see if your day improves. have fun in this life folks, you deserve it every once in a while!
A few days ago I turned 28. It was perhaps one of the best birthdays I've had in a while. Its funny because as of November 11 at 11am my friends had all flaked on hanging out with me and I was pissed and down at the same time. I had thought to myself that since my plans failed I would have a bad birthday but it was quite the opposite!
My awesome sister was down to hang and determined to make it a great birthday either way so I decided to call our friend monica up and see if we could go Wine tasting in the Napa Valley. As luck would have it she had nothing to do and was excited to hang with us. What followed was an awesome winery tour, some great samples of wine and great times. we then had dinner in napa and toured the town. In all it was a great day.
Then over the weekend i went to chico, had dinner with some buddies, went to hang out in downtown chico and went hunting the next day. Whim controlled great planning this weekend. I'm not saying plans are bad but sometimes spontaneity can be good for you. so this weekend when you have some down time, try to be a bit spontaneous and see if your day improves. have fun in this life folks, you deserve it every once in a while!
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Late Night Reflection - Saturday April 3, 2010
It’s 205am on aturday April 3, 2010. I am listening to “Everybody Knows” by the Damnwells, a track that I am really loving off of the PMR+1 Record. I am watching old episodes of Frasier, my favorite show ever, and duchess is licking the couch! lol. :)
This sunday is easter, or resurrection sunday as Christians say, lol. It was exactly one year ago this sunday that I went to my last service at my old church. I can recall how worried I was about the big move, how truly scared I was to leave what I was so used to. This isn't meant to be an update on my new church or anything like that, but simply a reflection on how change can be such a scary thing. A year ago I was fearing the move and today I'm as happy as can be at my new church. This makes me wonder what other changes I have been fearing that could possibly change my life for the better. how much would my life improve if I just manned up, and faced my insecurities head on? How different would I be??
This sunday is easter, or resurrection sunday as Christians say, lol. It was exactly one year ago this sunday that I went to my last service at my old church. I can recall how worried I was about the big move, how truly scared I was to leave what I was so used to. This isn't meant to be an update on my new church or anything like that, but simply a reflection on how change can be such a scary thing. A year ago I was fearing the move and today I'm as happy as can be at my new church. This makes me wonder what other changes I have been fearing that could possibly change my life for the better. how much would my life improve if I just manned up, and faced my insecurities head on? How different would I be??
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Late Night Reflection - March 19, 2010
It’s 158am on Friday march 29, 2020. I am listening to “Remember to Breathe” by Dashboard Confessional, a track with which i have recently fallen in love. I am not watching a movie and and duchess is sound asleep as always! lol. :)
So a guy is seen walking down the street, cut up, bleeding, badly injured with a smoke cloud at the distance of an apparent crash scene. Another guy drives up and asks the injured man if he should keep driving. the injured man says, "That's where I'm coming from. Don't do it, you're putting your life in danger if you do!! The driver nods, drives straight into the crash and adds to the pile up while the injured man watches in horror.
Do people really listen to advice? and if not then why exactly to they ask for it? is it just peace of mind that they had options before they went and did whatever the hell they wanted??
Today has been an interesting day. One of my former pupils went and switched churches even though I told him to stay at his church and one of my best friends went and hooked up with a girl after asking me whether or not he should hook up with her in the first place, my advice being no of course. (stories behind both of these, they are not just my stubborn opinions or anything). both guys ended up doing whatever they wanted. so if both of these guys were gonna do what they wanted then why did they ask me for help?? more so, Why do I even give out advice from my hard earned experience if nobody is even listening. Should I just start letting people experience their own mistakes and crash and burn??
So a guy is seen walking down the street, cut up, bleeding, badly injured with a smoke cloud at the distance of an apparent crash scene. Another guy drives up and asks the injured man if he should keep driving. the injured man says, "That's where I'm coming from. Don't do it, you're putting your life in danger if you do!! The driver nods, drives straight into the crash and adds to the pile up while the injured man watches in horror.
Do people really listen to advice? and if not then why exactly to they ask for it? is it just peace of mind that they had options before they went and did whatever the hell they wanted??
Today has been an interesting day. One of my former pupils went and switched churches even though I told him to stay at his church and one of my best friends went and hooked up with a girl after asking me whether or not he should hook up with her in the first place, my advice being no of course. (stories behind both of these, they are not just my stubborn opinions or anything). both guys ended up doing whatever they wanted. so if both of these guys were gonna do what they wanted then why did they ask me for help?? more so, Why do I even give out advice from my hard earned experience if nobody is even listening. Should I just start letting people experience their own mistakes and crash and burn??
Thursday, October 8, 2009
A Late Night Reflection...
So i know that I'm supposed to hit you guys with the next few parts of "laugh until we cried," but i promise I will release that soon.
as for now, I want to implement a new addition to my regular blog lineup (randomness, reviews, quote of the day, song of the day, poetry and updates on my calling in life). This new addition will be called, “Late Night Reflections.” I will be writing them on nights when I am up late due to a next day holiday or furlough day. More than likely I will be writing it while hanging with my doggie Duchess, having a drink, listening to some sort of emo music, and turning my back to a good movie that I will start watching right after I finish my blog. I will try to keep these short. So let’s begin, shall we?!
It’s 123am on Thursday October 8, 2009. I am listening to “Wedding Funeral” by Anchor and Braille, the song that sounds just as amazing as the first time I heard it months ago. I am about to watch Training Day with Denzel and duchess is sound asleep. :)
-I started off the day in Sacramento. I rarely make my way to the downtown area so I wasn’t sure to expect. I didn’t even have quarters for parking but God allowed me to avoid a ticket this time. (Praise God!) - I met a super nice lady from Sacramento which was great because I rarely meet nice people anymore. They help me to remember that there is still love in this messed up world. - Later that was neutralized by a mean little 17 yr old being rude and obnoxious during a presentation I was giving, re-instating my cynicism for the day. – This entire situation makes me wonder what makes a person decide to be nice or mean to a fellow human being on any given day. Is it just a bad day that they themselves had or a pessimistic outlook on life? Do negative people realize that their rudeness could ruin a person’s day? And if they do, do they care? My hope is that most of us choose to be positive, nice and loving towards our fellow human beings. I don’t mean this in a corny way, on the contrary, all I am saying is lets try to make our journey on this earth a good one by showing some love. Anyway, I’m out! I have to watch denzel regulate on ethan hawk!
Love you guys (my followers)!
-J.
as for now, I want to implement a new addition to my regular blog lineup (randomness, reviews, quote of the day, song of the day, poetry and updates on my calling in life). This new addition will be called, “Late Night Reflections.” I will be writing them on nights when I am up late due to a next day holiday or furlough day. More than likely I will be writing it while hanging with my doggie Duchess, having a drink, listening to some sort of emo music, and turning my back to a good movie that I will start watching right after I finish my blog. I will try to keep these short. So let’s begin, shall we?!
It’s 123am on Thursday October 8, 2009. I am listening to “Wedding Funeral” by Anchor and Braille, the song that sounds just as amazing as the first time I heard it months ago. I am about to watch Training Day with Denzel and duchess is sound asleep. :)
-I started off the day in Sacramento. I rarely make my way to the downtown area so I wasn’t sure to expect. I didn’t even have quarters for parking but God allowed me to avoid a ticket this time. (Praise God!) - I met a super nice lady from Sacramento which was great because I rarely meet nice people anymore. They help me to remember that there is still love in this messed up world. - Later that was neutralized by a mean little 17 yr old being rude and obnoxious during a presentation I was giving, re-instating my cynicism for the day. – This entire situation makes me wonder what makes a person decide to be nice or mean to a fellow human being on any given day. Is it just a bad day that they themselves had or a pessimistic outlook on life? Do negative people realize that their rudeness could ruin a person’s day? And if they do, do they care? My hope is that most of us choose to be positive, nice and loving towards our fellow human beings. I don’t mean this in a corny way, on the contrary, all I am saying is lets try to make our journey on this earth a good one by showing some love. Anyway, I’m out! I have to watch denzel regulate on ethan hawk!
Love you guys (my followers)!
-J.
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