It’s 1228 am on Friday June 3, 2011. I am Listening to "Please Don't Leave Quite Yet" by Adam Agin. Smooth sounding track, check it out if you get a chance. I'm not drinking any alcohol tonight, just a glass of water. and duchess is snoring the night away!
I was on somebody's facebook earlier, browsing through their pictures and found myself thinking about their life. I was thinking about how they must have grown up, how their parents might have treated them, how their self esteem is doing, etc. So of course I began to think about myself.
What would I be like if everything were different?
Would my personality be different if I had been born to a different set of parents? would I be happier if I was born on the other side of the tracks? Would I smile more if I had grown up with money in my pocket? Would I be a better student if my parents had read me bedtime stories before going to sleep? Would I have a better self esteem if my parents reminded me of my successes and goals instead of failures? Would I be a different person if I had a lucrative career, money in the bank, and a sh.. eating smirk that tells the world to screw itself? would people like me more if I wasn't as awkward? Would anybody care about me if I spent all my time focussing on myself instead of others? Would I have a blog if my pen wasn't itching to write about the pain in my life?
Who would I be if things were different? Would i be the same? better or worse?
About Me
- J
- I love writing. If you want to know anything else just ask me or else read up! I have two blogs ("A Pen Itching To Bleed Onto Paper" and "The Rebirth of J"). One of my blogs (A Pen...) is updated more frequently than the other. "The Rebirth” is more of a story I am writing with my life whereas "A Pen" would be my random thoughts past, present, and future in this unfolding journey I call life. If this is your first time reading my blog, please visit Post #2 for the month of April 2008 in my "A Pen" blog archives... Thanks!
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4 comments:
I also have the same questions which is normal. However, my therapist also reminds me that staying there too long gets us stuck in the past and prevents us from living in the here and now.
What powerful questions to ponder. I wonder too about me, but I know that everything in my past makes me who I am now and I'm learning to accept me.
(((((((J)))))))
J. would you believe even me, at my grandmotherly age have those questions.
All of these things factor into who we are today. We are all born with our basic personality traits I believe but society, genetics, environment, finances, family, and so on all create the person we are today.
You are lucky to be who you are. I wish that I had at least half the ambition as you. And I wish I was passionate about something as you are about God.
Missy
I read your most recent entry, then this one. Missy suggested your blog.
My family is nothing if not dancing around the diabetes tree. I think it has hit 1/2(of a very large)family.
Your questions just sound smart & curious. It's good to be smart & curious :-).
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