To be honest, I totally blame myself. I obviously can’t blame anybody else. I was the one that knew this stuff ran in my bloodline and I continued to be unhealthy. “Smile now, cry later” was my method when dealing with diseases. I guess I felt invincible because I am (or at least thought I was) young. As it turns out, it’s not quite full blown diabetes which means no insulin injections, no finger-pricking, no medication, just diet and exercise. I guess it's not that bad but I need to drop some weight asap and I intend to do exactly that!
When I left the doctors, I was hella depressed. I felt bad about myself. I felt bad about the choices I had made. I felt bad because of all the stuff that I couldn’t enjoy anymore: i.e. The Double Western from Carl’s Jr, Mexican sweet bread, an ice cold coke on a hot day, more than one beer, CHOCOLATE, COFFEE!! I couldn’t deal with it so to cheer myself up, I went … SUIT SHOPPING!!!!
(took this on a day after church a few years ago... good times!)Haha, had to do it! The suit is for my girlfriends cousins wedding but it still felt good to buy it. I look good in suits, lol.
Well anyway, Keep me in your prayers. I will more than likely feel bad about this in the future. It may be the source of anger or sadness in the future, but maybe not. I guess we will have to wait and see. For everybody reading this, please take care of yourself! Watch your carb and sugar intake, get plenty of exercise and steer clear of this crap.
4 comments:
My prayers are with you J. I know it won't be easy but you can do it and you will. Even though I'm old enough to know better I eat the bad stuff too and I can think of every excuse in the book not to exercise. Maybe you can give everyone who reads this an incentive.
J~
My thoughts and prayers are with you. Due to your family's history healthy habits would have only delayed the inevitable, so don't beat yourself up too much.
Your pictures are great.
Blessings Always,
CC
i know it's tough. but hopefully we'll work on getting in a healthy weight. all the rest is in God's hands. glad you went suit shopping though ;)
I'm sorry to here about that Juan. I know that has to be depressing. Don't blame yourself though. From the sounds of it, it was going to happen anyway.
Missy
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