Learning to be Happy

I have a hard time being happy. I'm not too sure why. you would think that because i'm christian I would always be happy, but that's not true. I'm a pessimist by nature. In fact that's part of why I NEED Jesus, Without him I would probably just crawl under a rock and die. But that's another blog.

There are a lot of things that I do to keep myself unhappy. I always have something to complain about, or somebody to blame for my bad mood. I look at good news through a lens of cynicism. But one of the worst things I do is allowing others to ruin my experiences.

Let me explain. I used to work at a sears store and I had this jerk of a boss. the guy was lazy and yet he felt the need to mess with us and look for all this extra work for us to do. the guy was rude, conceited, and pompous. In all, he was the kind of person that I couldn't stand.

so that was five years ago. Recently one of my buddies set up a camping trip. I was supposed to attend and yet he also invited my old manager. I was so irritated with my buddy for doing this and i tried to get him to uninvite him. I told one of my other buddies about this and he told me not to let our old manager ruin a potential good time for me.

I realized something. I allow other people to ruin situations for me; potentially great situations. It's like they have more of a say in my happiness than I do. These people are so unimportant to me and yet they can affect whether or not I am in a good mood. It's ridiculous. Well you know what? I refuse to do this anymore. Screw these people, they are not worth it! Just because I don't like specific people doesn't mean that I should allow them to ruin my life. Not anymore! I will attend that camping trip whether or not he shows up. I will enjoy my life regardless of who is around me and whether or not I like them.