Poem: Dissapear

You have disappeared into thin air
Its like the fog swallowed you up and digested you
until you became a wasted version of who you once were
To me, you were a rock star!
You were a picture on a wall that represented so much more
You were heart and soul,
Flesh and Blood,
Intelligence and talent
You were the first thought on my mind
when good combined with time
and music combined with rhyme
you’re the first one I would find
when I felt lost and scared
You empathized with me when all I asked for was sympathy
You were strength when I was weak, Jesus in flesh
Sacrifice of your last penny
So that I can make sense of life again
You were side-splitting laughter
Revealing intestines, nicotine-stained lungs,
and heart enough for ten men
you were my friend, my confidant
My Idol and my biggest fan
You were potential untapped
You were Light waiting to erupt into darkness
Tearing it into shards
You were tethered excellence,
Underrated genius
That in a just world would have been a billionaire,
Famous and worry-free
There was no one like you
Not even close

But you were a fortress to the outside world
You were a fetal position hiding behind walls of laughter
Shielded by quips and one liners
Twice as tall as anybodies attempts to find the real you
You were hope hanging on by the sliver of a string
A man climbing mountains of faith
With no vision
Loyal to the end
While others were fake from the beginning
You remained true as your foes attacked you
Feeding you lies about worthlessness and failure
until you had your fill
I watched you as you began to burn bridges
And go at it alone
I held out a helping hand which you dismissed
In attempt to fix your broken existence
By calling it your own mess
And insisting that nobody could fix it but you.
And I watched you,
As you crashed and burned on a dark winter night
Toppling over like a once mighty tower
Giving into the lesser of evils
And yet abandoning
The faith you had in God,
as he disappeared from your sight
The faith I had in you,
as You disappeared from my life
And the faith you had in yourself
as you disappeared into thin air
surrendering in your own fight…