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I love writing. If you want to know anything else just ask me or else read up! I have two blogs ("A Pen Itching To Bleed Onto Paper" and "The Rebirth of J"). One of my blogs (A Pen...) is updated more frequently than the other. "The Rebirth” is more of a story I am writing with my life whereas "A Pen" would be my random thoughts past, present, and future in this unfolding journey I call life. If this is your first time reading my blog, please visit Post #2 for the month of April 2008 in my "A Pen" blog archives... Thanks!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Living a Better Story Blog Entry!

I can remember literally sitting in the dark, PG&E having cut off my electricity for failure to pay my bill. I can remember thinking I would “only take a year off” of college which turned into half a decade. And I can definitely remember every time that my girlfriend has decided that, “we have taken way too long to get married, most couples are only together a couple of years before they get married.” Each one of these are examples of different problems that have occurred as results of my current life story.
When I was a senior in high school I figured out how to live my life with just enough work to get by. To be honest it worked for a while, I got by in every situation with just enough. This has been my life for the past decade, a series of decisions based on a preconfigured system I designed myself to get past any given objective. I got through most of college with a minimal amount of studying and a great term paper or two which amounted to the minimal passing grade. As a youth pastor, I studied up the night before a preaching every time I spoke at a youth night. I decided that a part time job and a few credit cards could get me through my over-indulgent life style.
Then one day, all of my systems came crashing down over me. I won’t go into detail but suffice it to say that my systems all failed and would not only crash down over my circumstances at the time, but the aftershocks also impacted my current situation.
So today I find myself at a job that I don’t like, knowing that I am meant for more. I found the woman of my dreams yet I am not being able to marry her because I not only have bad credit but no money. I want to finish school but I am afraid to lose my job, health benefits, security, etc. And on top of that I am a dreamer, I see myself being the pastor over a church, writing great books, being married to the love of my life and buying her a nice house in a good neighborhood. But the way I am living now, I doubt I would be able to reach any of that.
One day I picked up a book by the best author on earth (not only is this shameless sucking up, I also believe it) and read it cover to cover faster than a Lamborghini does 0 to 60. I couldn’t get my hands off of the book and when I had finished it, it birthed something inside of me. Within me I had a fresh dream that had previously been destroyed by my own hands. I had a goal for my life that I honestly believed I could achieve. I had a vision for a new story, a story that I would tell with my every day decisions and would be written in blood, sweat, prayers and tears.
The day I first read about the “Living a Better Story seminar,” I knew it was a God send. I thought to myself, what better way to kick start this life-change than by attending a seminar with the man himself and soaking up knowledge from the man that wrote the book on re-writing your story? To be honest, I know that attending this conference will not change my life but the experience itself can be an inciting incident that propels me to change my story also giving me practical ideas on how to do so. Even if I am not chosen, I really hope to attend this conference with people that are feeling the same way I feel and living the same way I am, but with a plan to take the pen back and write a new story.
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for more information on the "Living a Better Story Seminar go to this website: www.donmilleris.com/conference
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Watch this video:

Living a Better Story Seminar from All Things Converge Podcast on Vimeo.

2 comments:

Clueless said...

Hi J,

I miss you on my blog. Did I lose you forever? Intersting post. I left thinking about my story is always developing. You can change course anytime. I also think that you are very hard on your self. I took me six years to finish college.

Amelia said...

Hmmm Now itz here. Maybe Blogger just had a glitch or something.