I hate feeling this way, completely confused about my life. Feeling as though I have it all figured out and then somebody stole the chair out from right under me. Pain comes along with the understanding that specific things in my life are uncertain. I have no idea what I want in this life. No idea. For me to put myself in a place where I can actually say that means that I have stripped away any prior and secure ideas as to what I wanted in this life, leaving me wondering if there is anything real in my life, anything unchanging.
If certain constants in my life are taken away and I would feel like nothing is certain, like everything is unstable and that scares me.
Then again the instability might challenge me to grow and change my current perceptions of life, and the people/world around me. So perhaps this is a good thing, a challenge to become more than I am now and discover true happiness. I don’t expect anybody to understand this blog. I’m just confused as all hell right now.
About Me
- J
- I love writing. If you want to know anything else just ask me or else read up! I have two blogs ("A Pen Itching To Bleed Onto Paper" and "The Rebirth of J"). One of my blogs (A Pen...) is updated more frequently than the other. "The Rebirth” is more of a story I am writing with my life whereas "A Pen" would be my random thoughts past, present, and future in this unfolding journey I call life. If this is your first time reading my blog, please visit Post #2 for the month of April 2008 in my "A Pen" blog archives... Thanks!
3 comments:
I don't know if this will provide you any comfort but I don't think any of our lives are predictable or stable.
Keep your head up and keep fighting.
*M*
The only thing that's constant is Jesus. And death and taxes! ;p
nothing's constant. Lean on Jesus and ask for revelation about the new year.
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