My Calling in Life

Everybody is called to do something and be something in this life. So what am supposed to be? What will be my contribution toward the good of mankind and is there a reason for me to be on this earth?

God has told me in many ways that I am called to be a pastor and yesterday it was once again confirmed to me. Interesting I guess; The thought that I was placed on this earth to lead the lost and dying towards Jesus Christ and then take care of them and teach them to grow. That is me, mr. Emosaurus rex here who has a blog to pour out feelings when he's overwhelmed. Do I have what it takes to lead a people to God...? Apparently God thinks so. It's overwhelming for me. I'm already overwhelmed with the amount of responsibility that God has placed upon my life with OSU and the section, now an entire congregation?

How would I who struggle every inch of the way just to try to stay close to God, lead God's people? If it were up to me, I would be back of the scene, not up front. If I could I would be a servant without being a leader. To be quite honest, I'm just like everybody else, I get scared, hesitate, mess up, fall on my face, get my white robes dirty with sin, and yes at times I even doubt God. Why would God choose me to do this?

Sometimes i'd just like to run and hide in God's presence forever and just stay there. Not leading, but following him to wherever He wants to take me. i guess If I could do that, then i could just tell people to follow me, because I am following God... Exactly!

Thank you for trusting me God, now, strengthen me and help me, i will not go anywhere unless you go with me.